Saturday, September 27, 2008
I have been meaning to write this post for a while and as you can see today has been my catch up day. I need to be more organised with my blogging rather than bombarding you with so much information all at once.
Last Sunday night I was getting ready for bed about 10pm and was hit with a wave of worry. I felt like something was wrong, I checked the kids, all OK, I then felt sick, this was the worst worry I had experienced in ages. I called mum, in tears and told her I felt something was wrong. She said to relax and she was sure it would all be OK.
I need to explain, I am not psychic by any stretch of the imagination but I have some dreams come true, and then my "feelings" can tell me like last Sunday when something isn't quite right. Last time it happened one of dads work mates, was diagnosed of a brain tumour, two weeks later I had the same feeling and he had passed away.
Back to the original story. I went to bed uneasy, and tried to sleep. About 3 am I think I eventually dosed off. I spoke to as many people as I could contact on the Monday and everyone was OK. I tried to forget about it as best as I could but the familiar lump kept rising. For some reason I kept being drawn back to think about my ex boyfriend. I have dated him in nearly 10years, it ended badly and he is a person I would rather forget, I never think about him. By Wednesday I had enough and rang his mother. I have not got her number written anywhere and I do not phone her. I remembered the number out of the blue as soon as I decided that I would call. When she answered she started to cry and said out of all the days, what made you call today. I told her about the feeling and she told me about "Cabbage" (A friend we had back when we dated, when we split he got to keep him. I only saw him occasionally if I happened to run into him.) He died on Sunday and they buried him on Wednesday. OMG!!!! Spooky!!! She also told me that at the funeral "Bill" my ex's step dad asked if anyone had thought to call me, then I called her!! I had a good but sad catch up with her, sent my condolences and ended the call.
When I called mum and told her about it, she said I was unbelievable and if I ever had a "feeling" about her, could I call so she could park at the hospital.
Trust your instincts!!
Bye for now and Happy blogging.
My husband is officially hopeless. He is in Canberra away working on another wind farm and doesn't really like being away from us, or so he says.
In the last couple of months my husband has been VERY spoilt, and being away in Canberra has not helped his habits without me there to supervise him.
His latest purchases are listed below.
Fathers Day: $300 Hoist. Excuse: I need it to get the welder off the back of the Ute, it has been there since we have moved to S.A and it is costing me heaps in fuel carting such a heavy object around all the time. (Wife agrees, then drove to Adelaide to pick it up. Before he went away)
First year Anniversary: $280 Flying lessons (Gift from Wife)
Springs for car: $900 Safety Issue (Wife agrees, ordered, VISA'ED, Had another day hubby less while he fitted them.)
Fishing Rod: $100 I am in Canberra and need something to do on my afternoon off. (Wife didn't know until a week after purchase.) Wife wonders what is wrong with the 3 fishing rods you already own? He Forget them!!
Glasses $450 He really needed these they shouldn't be counted.!!
New Tattoo $250 The phone call went a little like this.
Me: Hey what you up to?
Him: Just waiting for the optometrist to open
Me: Oh OK, so you got an appointment then?
Him: No not yet I am waiting till they open.
Me: Oh so you didn't call?
Him: No I am waiting till they open.
(this went on for a while I couldn't understand why he didn't call a few days prior to his day off and arrange an appointment.)
Me: OK then no worries, good luck call me after.
3 Hours later another call comes in from him.
Me: How did you go?
Him: Oh my appointment isn't for another half an hour.
Me: See I told you to call.
Him: Never mind I just window shopped. Liked some of the rings and things I saw in the Jewellers.
Me: Really? and..........
Him: You would like them, they were nice.
Me: Oh OK I guess I had better let you go if you have to go to the eye docs.
Him: I was just ringing to ask you if I could get another tattoo? I want to get the girls names tattooed on my arm.
Me: Can you wait a few more weeks I want to build the savings up again, wait till pay day.
Him: Oh please it is only $250.
Me: Oh really, do you have to now, can't you wait.
Him: Well no I can't wait.
Me: The tattoo shop is not going anywhere.
Him: I can't wait I sorta all ready got it, while I was waiting for my appointment with the optometrist.
Me: WHAT!!!! What would you have done, if I had of said no?
Him: I just would not have told you.
Obviously the conversation didn't end there but you get it!! My husband is officially an IDIOT!!! He sent me some pics via his phone and I do like it but that is not the point. I will share them all with you once he is home and I can take some cool ones with the camera. I can't get the others off the phone for some odd reason. I told him that night when he called he owed me BIG TIME!! I need a bit of spoiling and he said "Oh don't worry I got you another Jewellery box." Your all probably thinking Oh how nice but That is the 3rd one he has bought me in 6 years, don't you think he could start buying me jewellery to put in them?? I WANT DIAMONDS!!!! Men!!!!
Bye for now and Happy Blogging.
Just a quick little update on the happenings around here in our little world. Mickalee is in the process of toilet training : (. No luck as of yet but I am trying not to rush her I am sure she will get there when she is ready. So far it has created more washing for me and that is about it.
I am still on the uni train, although I will admit I am struggling at the moment. I have an assignment due on Friday and only started it today because I was waiting for my great mates Ryan and Kim to visit and install the necessary program because I am hopeless when it comes to that sort of thing. I have decided no t.v for me until it is finished. Focus, focus, focus.
Dora live is in Adelaide on the 8Th of Oct so we will be heading in the day before for that also and Tony is due home then too. Hooray!!! I miss him heaps!! Can't wait.
I weeded the garden this week. The weeds were up to my waist, I have been putting it off and putting it off so it my own fault that it got that bad!! I am suffering for it now though it took me all afternoon and I have been stiff ever since!! Thank god it is done though. I ma investing in a little spray bottle for round up, and I plan to spray the suckers as soon as they appear from now on. I think that will be better I didn't want to use the big weed sprayer in that garden because I didn't want to accidentally kill the roses. I have also come the conclusion that if and when we get around to buying a home of our own it will be all concrete, fake grass and PLASTIC plants. LOL!!
Bye for now and Happy Blogging.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I have been keeping up to date with all the little or sometimes BIG blogs I read, and my day does not feel complete until I have checked up on everyone. I went away last week as you know and I came home to about 30 new posts in my reader for me to enjoy. Despite being absolutely buggered I sat up and read every last one. So much happened in the 3 days I was away I was amazed!
I have come to a dead end in blogland at the moment, my house is relatively quite by comparison and nothing much has happened around here in the last few days so I have had nothing to post about. I am sure now that I have said it though a freak tornado will rip my roof off tomorrow and I will have heaps to talk about.
The girls are being their normal destructive selves, I am sure they think that they need to mess the house up once I have cleaned it just so I don't get bored. They conspire against me I am sure of it (NO I am not just paranoid!). I can picture the conversation now "Hey Brandy mum just picked up all the toys in the playroom.". Brandy is watching Dora. "Yeah so?". Mickalee walks to the toy room, and up ends both toy baskets. "Hey Brandy quick come here you have to see this." Brandy runs to Mickalee. "See what?" Mickalee yells "MUM!! Brandy just tipped all the toys out." OK OK they are only little but seriously that is what it is like. Mickalee is a schemer and Brandy falls for it every time. Where do kids learn this stuff from? Mickalee did something naughty the other day, for memory it had something to do with drawing on something she shouldn't of and she said "No not me mummy it was the monkey." I know I have bad days but if we had a damn monkey in the house I am sure I would have noticed it!! I don't lie, and my husband doesn't lie (except for when I ask him if my butt is getting big. I don't care how big it gets!! He better lie.!!) So why is she lying. I just don't understand. She is socialised with other kids but the kids she plays with have been taught the same values, as her and have never lied to me. She watches Nick Jr and I have seen a couple of shows about lying but it has always been related to how wrong it is. Where is she picking it up? She has also discovered how to say "NO WAY!", "No"came a long time ago but this new vocabulary is driving me insane. I hope it is just a phase and i prey for the day when she says "sure mummy!" Wishful thinking on my part I know but I can dream can't I?
Tony left on Tuesday morning for the Canberra wind farm job and will be away this stint for 4 weeks, then home for one. This is no different to the roster he was working at Snowtown except due to him being a lot closer he was able to come home during his weeks at work to have dinner with us and see his beautiful girls. Tony suffers more than we do when he is away, I am so pre-occupied with the girls, uni and house things I don't have time to focus on him not being here. I can have endless phone calls with him at night, so this helps and makes it seem like he is close by. The girls are too young yet to realise he is away, and when Mickalee does ask where he is I tell her "Daddy is at work." and she simply says "OK". One day she got mad and said "NO mummy, daddy is at school not work." I thought it was so cute I never corrected her. I also get to see the girls everyday. On a bad day with the girls I envy him 3 weeks away is my idea of heaven.
I would love to say CONGRATULATIONS to Mel from "A Dream come true" on the safe but hectic arrival of her little baby boy Ashton Blake, who weighed in at a TINY (not) 11 pounds. WOW!! Hope all is going well with your new bundle of joy!.
I hope to be back soon with something more interesting for you all.
Bye for now and Happy blogging
Saturday, September 13, 2008
I have not fallen off the face of the earth but I have been busy and away from the computer so I have not been able to fill you in on the latest happenings in our little world.
This is where my family gets complicated. We were once the traditional family unit but we are now made of much more than that. Since mum and dad split up they have both found happiness elsewhere and with that comes more brothers sisters. So we what once started out as 3 (Me, Dan and Josh), became 8. Deans 3 kids (Tara, Kim and Jock), and Ange's 2 (Ryan and Olivia). I am happy to report that I am still the oldest. This also means more grandparents, more uncles and aunties and of course more cousins. Anyway there is a point to telling you all this, My step dads, step dad passed away on the 1st of Sept. "Pom" (that was his well known nickname) was with Deans mum for 28 years and they were planning to get married later this year. We all knew Pom before mum and Dean got together as he was a local Owner/driver in Bordertown and with Dad being in the tyre industry we got to know a lot of the drivers. As it turned out mum and Dean had other prior commitments and couldn't attend, so I travelled 600k with the girls to attend the funeral, not only for myself but also on their behalf. The service was held on Thursday Sept 11Th 08' and was very lovely. It also meant that I got a chance to meet people in Deans family I had not met yet, As we all came from Bordertown I knew of Deans brothers, but I had not officially met them. I was also saddened by the fact that you only catch up with long lost relatives and friends at the loss of another, but it was nice to see them even under bad circumstances.
I stayed with my Auntie Suzie and her kids in Bordertown for the time I was visiting and it was great to catch up with everyone. All the kids enjoyed playing together and it was great for my girls to get to know their second cousins. After returning from Naracoorte we went out for dinner with everyone for my birthday. We all had a good time and all the kids behaved perfectly. Auntie Suzie and her family live in the same house that I grew up in as a kid and it was a little weird being there with my kids. I also couldn't get over the fact that a room that seemed so big when I was a kids was really only tiny. Also the fence at my other Aunts place that took up ages to climb over was only up to my knee. I have not been back to Bordertown in 6 years and it is amazing how much changes in that time.
While we in Naracoorte for the funeral I called around to visit my God mother who I have not seen since my 18Th birthday and she looked after the girls so we did not have to take them to the service. She spoilt them rotten, like she used to do with us when we were kids and they had a great time visiting with her. Mickalee didn't want to get in the car when it came time to leave, she was happy to stay. I said to my god mother "If that doesn't prove she had a good time I don't know what does." This trip was unfortunately very rushed but I plan to do it again with Tony as he has not been there yet. I also have family members he is yet to meet. I am sure it would be nice for him to finally put faces to names.
Bye for now and happy blogging.
Farewell POM. You will be dearly missed!! I hope there is beer in heaven!!
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Here is a pic of me on an ordinary day! No make -up or going out clothes!! Put here solely to gain your opinion, or comparison. Do I look like Ugly Betty?I do realise that she is a fictional character and "America Ferrera" who plays that character is very beautiful. I just want to know why is "Ugly Betty" ugly? I personally don't think she is but I obviously someone thought so. Is is her braces? or glasses? or bad dress sense? She is smart, maybe it's that? She cares about her family and work friends maybe that's ugly? I have no idea. I am not even sure why I took his comments as an insult. Maybe it was a compliment? I was drunk so maybe it was just the word ugly that got me cranky? I did have issues at school about how I looked, but only because the kids at school (kids are too cruel) had an issue it and I was constantly teased. Now I am an adult I have come to realise that the people who do care about it are not worth talking to anyway. None of my friends are going to race "Tyra Banks" down the catwalk any time soon, but they are my friends and I love them. They are ALL shapes and sizes and ALL have issues with their own bodies but I don't think any of them are ugly. I am certainly no "Mona Lisa" but .......... I am funny, My hubby says I'm sexy (his opinion is the only one that really counts RIGHT. Oh and I am happy with me.), I love and care about my kids, my family and my friends, I LOVE chocolate, I wear glasses, I am not a size 10 and NEVER will be (trust me my body and my brain came to terms with that A LONG time ago), I live in Jeans, and anything else I can get to fit my boobs right, I love my boots, my dogs, and country music....................................................... If any of those things make me UGLY!! I guess He was right!! I AM "Ugly Betty".
Bye for now and Happy blogging
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Tony and I are going out tonight by ourselves for the first time in a few months, This will also probably be the last chance we get to in a while also. Tony is off to Canberra on the 15Th for work and Mum and Dean are also going around the 10Th. So I will be deserted for 4 weeks out of 5!! Thank-god I have made friends is all I can say.
Tonight we are off to a work party, it is an end of job celebration, as they have finished at Snowtown. I have organised baby sitters for the girls and I don't have to pick them up until tomorrow morning. It is the first time they have stayed away from home over night without me. Mum and Dean have stayed out our house and looked after them while I went to my brothers 18Th and we have spend nights away from home together but this is to be their first independent, SLEEP OVER!!!
I am confident that the girls will be fine, and the chosen people to care for them have years of experience with children and will cope very well. I just can't work out why I feel so funny about it!! I am not sure what it is, I announced when I was pregnant that I was going to take up ALL offers of babysitting, I wasn't going to be one of those mums that stayed home with my kids and missed out on the fun! By the way there is nothing wrong with being one of those mums, but that's just not me. They go to occasional care and they don't miss me, they are having so much fun they don't even notice that I'm not there. I think I just need to toughen up and appreciate the fact that my kids are socialised enough to be able to spend a night with someone else, while I endeavour to get my groove on!!
Wish me luck!! I was never that good at dancing!! Frog in a blender is more my style.
Bye for now and happy blogging
I have started a scarf for myself, which keeps getting ripped, as I am not as good as I would like to be at counting my stitches!! Stayed tuned for the pics of that!!
Bye for now and Happy blogging
Monday, September 1, 2008
Bye for now and happy blogging.
This is when she had calmed down and decided that maybe a banana would be nice.
Brandy has not started to kick her legs yet when she throws herself on the floor, but I am waiting for it. I am sure it will start eventually. I can't remember how this started but I assume it may have something to do with me telling her for the billionth time not to play in the cupboard!
We start on our front normally then roll over onto our backs to see if anyone is watching. No-one normally is at this point. I try to ignore it not encourage it however this time the photo op was too good to miss.
Tantrums are an odd thing to blog about and I talk about my girls all the time but I decided I would share some of the BAD things with you all. I feel that when I was pregnant no-one told me the truth about children. I was ripped off and lead into a obscure version of the truth. I was told about the birthing process, the PAIN, the sleepless nights when they are babies (I was a lucky one I had sleepers so this was never a HUGE issue.) and endless nappy changes, feeds and burps but no-one talked about the toddlers. Not one person told me that I would have days where jumping of a cliff seemed like a great idea, just so I could get peace. No-one told me that I would NEVER pee alone again. No-one told me that a two year old will repeat everything she says a million times (in-case you didn't hear it the first hundred times) just because she can. No-one mentioned that they would scream at the top of their lungs as soon as I am on the phone, or that they get even louder when the call is important. Consider this my WARNING to those who have not had babies yet OR have babies that are not "EXPLORING" yet. GOOD LUCK!!!
I will also say all the things I mentioned above will happen ALL on the same day just to really test you, but it makes it ALL worth it when they say something like. "I love you mummy." Or
They sit and eat their breakfast quietly so you can enjoy your first cup of coffee in PEACE!
Bye for now and happy blogging.